It’s an internal battle right now, about everything. I am really struggling with perfection in a very intense way and it’s not manifesting itself in eating disorder behaviors but it triggers my eating disorder thoughts like crazy!
The days, the weeks, the evens I had been through this week were always celebrated with huge weekend binges, later on binges/purges, as if I was gobbling up all the negativity of the week in one enormous feast of food.
But I’m a survivor.
I no longer turn to food.
I indulge differently.
This Friday it’s Nicole’s Yoga, the Sushi, Chanel and Vino.
Yesterday I’ve watched the new Chanel fashion show. Karl presented another collection to dream about. So this evening I dine on my old Chanel book
I feel alive.
What’s your favorite indulgence?